I am back!! :D It's been ages since I have posted and so much has happened. I won't go into great detail except to say that We have now shifted to our new house in Wellard on 5 acres and it was the best decision we could have made for ourselves. I feel at home here and the kids absolutely love all of the space! They can kick balls, ride bikes, run around and play on the trampoline etc..
We also got a puppy dog just before christmas - a gorgeous little black Lab called Vada. She is such a cutie and has been so well behaved. She is already such a huge part of our family and I couldn't imagine living here and not having her, we all adore her!
I am still taking my Lexapro but I am finally ok with that! I feel like I am coping well with life and although I will always miss Mum, and although Dan and I have been through a hell of a few years it is now time to start looking forward as best we can. I am ok with taking the tablets at the moment because I know that they are supporting me and just helping me to be a better mum to the kids. Without them I was a grumpy, miserable, screaming mess but now I am much more balanced and feeling positive for the first time in a long time (probably a combination of time healing some wounds, and the Lexapro)
So... here we are the beginning of 2011 and I am feeling ready to face the world! I have decided that this is going to be the year of ME. It is time I start putting my own needs and wants first (something I haven't done for a long time!) I need to focus on getting healthier and eating better and also on exercising and feeling better about myself.I need to lose about 15 kilos so I intend on doing that this year with the aid of Weight Watchers and their new Pro Points program.
Max and Blake go off to Kindy this year (hard to believe that when I started this blog I was just pregnant with them!!) It will be a bittersweet moment for me. I am SO looking forward to having just Isla at home with me and FINALLY being able to have some sort of a normal life for at least two or three days a week!! On the flipside I feel like they are still very 'young' and I'm not sure how they will go - but they are very excited and I am keen to see how they adapt to school life :)
I also plan on spending a little bit of time finding a hobby that I can enjoy.. maybe some scrapbooking or sewing again.. It's been so long since I have done anything like that just for the joy of it - it will feel weird but I think this last 4 years I have earned it!
*sigh* oh well... school holidays at the moment I have the kids whinging at me for food and drinks so I had better go! I promise to keep updating through the year and document my 'year of me'.
M
xx